Freedom in the Midst of Madness.

…You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.

Matthew 22:37

Hi. My name is Jeni. I am a woman in my 40’s who has suffered from schizoaffective disorder with major depression since age 15. I am also a Christ follower who has finally found strength and victory over my mentally ill episodes by God’s grace and mercy and power in my life.

My battles began without a clear relationship with God and were times of darkness, despair, crushing anxiety and frightening psychosis. As I grew to know the person of God intimately I found freedom in the midst of my “madness”.

I named this blog after an 18th-century woman who said, “I want to be a feather on the breath of God”–Hildegard of Bingen. Her words encapsulate how I want to live my life on a daily basis. I want to safely and patiently drift in His will for my life, going anywhere and doing anything He guides me towards.

My illness may not go away in this lifetime but complete trust and surrender in Jesus gives me eternal peace. I hope that my writings will help you come to a deeper understanding of God and that you come to know the Lord in a personal way. No matter what your circumstances are, always remember God has great plans for your life and that you “…are fearfully and wonderfully made.” —Psalms 139:14.