And it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to Him must believe that God exists and that He rewards those who sincerely seek Him.Hebrews 11:6
I used to think that if I couldn’t feel God’s presence that He probably wasn’t there. There were countless times I prayed for something to change or happen or be received, with seemingly no answer. I would huff and puff in anger or discouragement like a child being refused a much-wanted toy. I thought that God was just not listening. I treated Him like a vending machine hoping to put in a prayer or two, like change, and get the well-deserved candy out the other end. It was childish thinking.
And now as I look back over the many times I “gave up” on God ever answering my prayers I can now see how they were answered all along. Sometimes God said, “No way! It is not good for your future. You only see your present right now. You must trust me.” Sometimes God put the answer on hold until I was ready to receive it. I know I prayed for wisdom and patience for a long time trying to figure my way out of circumstances but instead, he waited until I was more spiritually mature so that I could use those attributes to serve others. And sometimes he did answer right away with a resounding “Yes!” because it was in line with His will for me at that time.
But between answers. I didn’t always feel God. I expected a movement deep inside my soul all of the time or else I thought I had been abandoned or that God just didn’t understand or care about my needs….which were more likely to be wants anyway (Not that there is anything wrong with wanting, it is just not always the important stuff in life). Through observing others in their walk with Christ, and my own experience over many, many years of misunderstanding things, I have come to a final conclusion…
Faith Is A Choice. I choose to have faith in God not because of what I feel, but rather because of what I know to be true. I know God is a loving Father who sent His only Son to earth to die for my sins, and that if I believe this with faith, even without proof or feelings involved, that I will have life eternal with Him in heaven and that my needs will be taken care of here on earth. I know I must walk in His will for my life by righteous living and remain on the right path that he leads me on every day.
I know these things because He told me so in His Word. And you better believe I believe the Word of God. For there is nothing greater to believe in, to have faith in, to stand in obedience to. Now that is not to say I never feel God’s presence. I do. I have become in tuned to listening to His voice and feeling the Holy Spirit work within me in my innermost parts. A friend told me that that feeling is the sweet spot of the Christian life. And it is important to have that connection as much as possible. I am just saying, sometimes when you may be feeling Him the least, it might just be because he is waiting for you to trust that He is there. Choose to believe.