I’ve been struggling with the idea of working in a ministry for the Lord without actually doing a paid job or career. I have tried working in the conventional sense before and because of my disability find it close to impossible. You see, working has always been a health hazard for me. With my Major Depressive disorder and psychosis, I find the stress exacerbates my symptoms every time and I end up getting worse or end up in the hospital and lose my job anyway. Believe me, I have tried time and time again. But that does not mean I am lazy.
I believe what the bible says in 2 Thessalonians 3:10 “the one who is unwilling to work shall not eat.” But what exactly entails “work”? Is it simply to gain wealth or compensation? I have come to the conclusion “no”. So in that sense, if I serve the Lord by spreading His Word and ministering to people who are lost or in need through volunteering my time and effort I feel I am fulfilling this biblical principle. All I really desire in this world is to serve God. This is the desire of my heart. And I am pretty sure it aligns with His will.
I know God will take care of my needs if I am within His will for my life. I am not afraid of being a little uncomfortable or without luxuries. I currently receive disability payments and although they are small they suffice for what I need and I am thankful. Sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve them but to be honest, I am ill, and they are necessary…at least for the time being. I am open to change in my future but as for now, they will have to be a part of my income and security. My medication alone costs over $45,000/yr and without my medical benefits provided due to my disability, I would not be able to afford them. I would just be a much larger burden because of more frequent hospitalizations or homelessness. I feel God has provided a way to keep me well; to keep me on medication so that I can serve Him with a clear mind. And for that I am grateful.
I want to thank all of those who work and pay taxes. For if it were not for you I would be in dire circumstances. Your help has enabled me to live a life that is fulfilling and productive. God bless you and what you do for if it were not for the contributions you make to social programs people like me would not be able to make it. You too are doing God’s work and I appreciate and honor your sacrifices. Most people who are on disability are not lazy or a “drain” on society. We are just people in need and your taxes help a tremendous amount in taking care of our basic needs. Thank you.